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솔부 verkwan ONLY

RATED G - T

liminality - G

“I’m thinking,” Hansol smiles, “That I’m sharing food with you. It’s all I can do, and it is everything.”

There’s a familiar twitch at the corner of Seungkwan’s lips.

“Don’t think you can trick me by quoting Andre Dubus.”

Seungkwan’s fingernails are dainty, pretty little things.

a study on souls, et al - T

It’s like this:

On your 18th birthday, the initials of your soulmate will appear on the inside of your pinky. After that, your memory of your most recent past life comes back.

Seungkwan and Vernon meet at fifteen.

always holding your love supreme - T

Struggling on the floor of JFK Airport, Seungkwan meets a face he never thought he would, after three years.

habit - T

When Seungkwan called him in the Vlive and said I like you, Vernon laughed and said I like you, too, because it's Seungkwan, and he really, really likes Seungkwan.

As a friend.

kidult - T

Seungkwan equates love with having someone's photo in your wallet, carrying it with you at all times. Vernon's wallet doesn't even have a photo pocket.

Or:

Seungkwan and Vernon, in love but not together, for a little over a decade.

the sun will rise (and we will try again) - T

One time, while they were in one of the outpost ruins, they followed a shooting star all the way to the edge of the world. It was not an easy thing to do. They did it, though, and at the edge by the rocks, the star was just a pillar of light, then it was a door, then Seungkwan was pushing through it.

What would you do, Seungkwan? Push the door open. Enter it.

It's how they left Hyrule and entered Teyvat.

A hundred years is a very, very long time.

his eye and my i - T

I'm a fool who only receives, Hansol wrote in All My Love. In Korean, the title was Barely.

My heart won't change, it's only for you, Seungkwan wrote in Barely. In English, the title was All My Love.

What are you scared of?

slow dancers - T

“You don’t know him anymore,” Jeonghan says over the call. “Are you sure you’re just not making him into an ideal?”

“I don’t think of him as an ideal, per se,” Seungkwan answers. “I don’t know. I just send emails when I feel like sending one, it’s not like I’m sending them every day.”

“Are you sending one right now!?"

“No!” Seungkwan flushes, “I sent one yesterday.”

Seungkwan writes some emails.

simple - T

He smells of tangerines and distant flowers and he imagines, for a second, telling Seungkwan, Let’s get married. Let’s live here someday and spend the rest of our lives together. And we’ll adopt all the cats and dogs and children you want. And I’ll let you live your life, as long as I get to live my life with you in it.

Vernon meets Seungkwan's family in Jeju, take two.

commitment - T

"I can't believe he managed to ease you into adopting a cat. You're such a huge dog person."

"We have Bookkeu," Seungkwan hums, then adds, "And well, cats are cute."

"Of course you'll think that. Your boyfriend is one."

Vernon, Seungkwan, and what it means to be committed.

take me down easy - T

"Isn't it funny," Hansol starts saying, itching to fill the void born from a lack of conversation with Seungkwan, "that we've always wanted to go on a road trip but never really got to until now?"

Seungkwan hums, before replying, "This is certainly unexpected."

What's it like driving up the east coast with your ex-boyfriend, whom you are still very much in love with?

just as usual - T

Ten years since he left Jeju, and Seungkwan still feels like the ocean.

"You've never dated anyone else?"

Snip snip.

"I did," Seungkwan doesn't look up, and Hansol stares at him. "Once. We went out for, let's see...three years?"

"Ah."

His neck is warm. There's a belated, volatile feeling of shame at the pit of his stomach, and Hansol tries to reconcile the knowledge in his head. Suddenly, the ring imprint makes sense.

Seungkwan gives Hansol a haircut.

attention - E

After Seungkwan's meltdown on Instagram, Vernon gives him the attention he wanted (and deserved).

(Seungkwan has to survive a Vlive first, though.)

changing partners - E

Usually, the stories end like this: Seungkwan loves Hansol, Hansol loves Seungkwan, and there's nothing left to be said. The End.

But there's a lot of nuances that come with loving Hansol.

godspeed - M

A year after Hansol left, and after months of struggling through their long distance relationship, Seungkwan decided to literally erase him from his memory after sending him a short break-up text.

He just underestimated how much Hansol affected his life.

high above the rest - M

"So you broke up with me?"

Seungkwan's eyes shot up to him, wide and stunned. "You remember?"

"No," He says. It was just a guess. But to know that he's right, to know that it really did happen like that—makes it so much harder to breathe. "I just guessed."

Seungkwan looks away, lips pressed together.

"What made you guess that?"

"Because I never would've broken up with you."

Hansol wakes up after a car accident, still thinking that it's late 2015—that he's still with Seungkwan, and that they're just about to begin their relationship. Seungkwan, 24, heart broken twice over, doesn't know what to do with it.

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DIRECTORY

RATED G - T

It’s like this: On your 18th birthday, the initials of your soulmate will appear on the inside of your pinky. After that, your memory of your most recent past life comes back. Seungkwan and Vernon meet at fifteen.

Struggling on the floor of JFK Airport, Seungkwan meets a face he never thought he would, after three years.

When Seungkwan called him in the Vlive and said I like you, Vernon laughed and said I like you, too, because it's Seungkwan, and he really, really likes Seungkwan. As a friend.

Seungkwan equates love with having someone's photo in your wallet, carrying it with you at all times. Vernon's wallet doesn't even have a photo pocket. Or: Seungkwan and Vernon, in love but not together, for a little over a decade.

I'm a fool who only receives, Hansol wrote in All My Love. In Korean, the title was Barely. My heart won't change, it's only for you, Seungkwan wrote in Barely. In English, the title was All My Love. What are you scared of?

"I can't believe he managed to ease you into adopting a cat. You're such a huge dog person." "We have Bookkeu," Seungkwan hums, then adds, "And well, cats are cute." "Of course you'll think that. Your boyfriend is one." Vernon, Seungkwan, and what it means to be committed.

After Seungkwan's meltdown on Instagram, Vernon gives him the attention he wanted (and deserved). (Seungkwan has to survive a Vlive first, though.)

Usually, the stories end like this: Seungkwan loves Hansol, Hansol loves Seungkwan, and there's nothing left to be said. The End. But there's a lot of nuances that come with loving Hansol.

A year after Hansol left, and after months of struggling through their long distance relationship, Seungkwan decided to literally erase him from his memory after sending him a short break-up text. He just underestimated how much Hansol affected his life.

It’s like this:

On your 18th birthday, the initials of your soulmate will appear on the inside of your pinky. After that, your memory of your most recent past life comes back.

Seungkwan and Vernon meet at fifteen.

When Seungkwan called him in the Vlive and said I like you, Vernon laughed and said I like you, too, because it's Seungkwan, and he really, really likes Seungkwan.

As a friend.

Seungkwan equates love with having someone's photo in your wallet, carrying it with you at all times. Vernon's wallet doesn't even have a photo pocket.

Or:

Seungkwan and Vernon, in love but not together, for a little over a decade.

I'm a fool who only receives, Hansol wrote in All My Love. In Korean, the title was Barely.

My heart won't change, it's only for you, Seungkwan wrote in Barely. In English, the title was All My Love.

What are you scared of?

"I can't believe he managed to ease you into adopting a cat. You're such a huge dog person."

"We have Bookkeu," Seungkwan hums, then adds, "And well, cats are cute."

"Of course you'll think that. Your boyfriend is one."

Vernon, Seungkwan, and what it means to be committed.

After Seungkwan's meltdown on Instagram, Vernon gives him the attention he wanted (and deserved).

(Seungkwan has to survive a Vlive first, though.)

Usually, the stories end like this: Seungkwan loves Hansol, Hansol loves Seungkwan, and there's nothing left to be said. The End.

But there's a lot of nuances that come with loving Hansol.

A year after Hansol left, and after months of struggling through their long distance relationship, Seungkwan decided to literally erase him from his memory after sending him a short break-up text.

He just underestimated how much Hansol affected his life.